Here I am again like a dumbass! He is no where to be found. His whole family is covering for him and I am pregnant with his second baby, at home and all stressed out without a wink of sleep. Boy! Am I the stupidest person?! I don't know what gets in his head, but it's like clockwork, every couple of months he does the old thing. I hate him! I hate him! I am so stupid! I feel so alone, abandoned by everyone.